the bittersweet chocolate starfish

I think I need to go for a brain check-up. To see if anyone has been messing up with the mental mechanisms inside. I hope all the neurons and hormones are in place. But I have a feeling that the serotonin (happy hormone) levels  are pretty much at a low point. Or maybe there’s too much of unhappy hormones, whatever you call them.  It’s affecting other areas - Whatever the brains thinks, the face shows and the heart feels. My brains have been really mean lately. I try not to think. I try not to analyze. All the same, i’ve been waking up in the morning with my facial muscles and jaw set in a tight and droopy fashion which could otherwise be translated as ’sulking’. Smiling is an effort. And my eyes seem to take on a blank jaded stare. But no, i’m not tripping on weed or flowers or grass. I’m pretty much sure that i’m still sane. Silly, maybe. But i just can’t figure myself out anymore..i can’t run on D.I.Y mode anymore.. I need some professional or supernatural intervention. Maybe even an little imaginery friend with a bag of surprises and solutions to share. Hmm..Doraemon would be a good one. Maybe he’ll be able to offer me Relationship Prozac, among other things that i badly need.

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