the bittersweet chocolate starfish

1. i think i’m suffering from ADD (Attention Deficient Disorder). That’s cos i can’t stop feeling restless and pointless doing the things i do at home, yet i feel tired and worn out being outside d whole day.. *sigh. Just can’t get my butt still..aarghhh

2. i’ve been reading through my old high school diary.. can’t believe d cheesy stuff i wrote! Eeeks.. what was i thinking at age 16..lolz..d pains and pleasures of growing up being articulated in overly-angsty and plain adolescent language. Oh there were some pretty good memories..that’s for sure..sighz..Nostalgia can be real nice. Or nasty. It depends what kinda memory it evokes..

3. I know this sounds real stupid and morbid. But anyone ever thought of this: To die young in a memorable fashion is better than to die old and unloved? Okay, no worries. I’m not suicidal at any given moment now. Just a thought. Really.

4. Relationships are like another alternative reality that you enter into, which either helps define or distort your very own reality. Overwhelming, that’s for sure.

5. Check out Fall Out Boy - Dance, Dance (high power punk rock hit that’s just sooo cool) & Fort Minor - High Road (rap rock no. that reli doesnt sound like Mike but cuts it just as good)..Cool stuff.

6. I’m in such poor health lately..*sigh. Imagine what taking 8 to 10 pills a day can do to you. Erm..besides reduce your intelligence by 10 percent perhaps..? I dunno..i sure hope that’s not d case..

1. i am bored.

2. i am super duper bored.

3. i am wondering why my chocolate almond cookies don’t taste right. I think i added too much sugar. Ok, I don’t want my friends to have diabetes and die early! Must remember to put less sugar liaoz.

4. i just discovered my first ever dream car (What are cars anyway? See, i never gave a damn. I know nuts about whatever suspension or horsepower shit that guys like to yak about) But d other day, it happened. I spotted a Peugeot 206 cc. It’s such a babes! A silver not-too-mini sleek convertible with a very sports chick factor! Very cool. Totally. (gosh..hehee..fancy me actually naming a car. Ok fine, i had to ask my friend about it. As if i know anything..)

4. I am listening to d other songs on Fort Minor’s album. Good stuff. Very LP-soundish but with an extra hip-hoppy edge, i think. Less whiny rap and minus Chester yelling his head off. Seemingly personal with lyrics resounding of Mike’s life story and experiences. Check out ‘Red to Black’ and ‘Kenji’.

5. I am in doubt of whether to go into relationships again. It’s been a long time. It’s like being a newbie in a sport like tennis or squash which you’ve lost interest in for a long time. It’s like rediscovering the taste of beer, the ecstacy of drunkenness and the suckiness of hangovers all over again after quitting alcohol for 2 years. It’s like taking on the road again after having your driving license suspended and spending some time in jail for drunk driving. It’s like daring yourself to have a rollercoaster ride again after a maddening experience of throwing up the very last time you attempted something like that… 

*Luv tis song v much!*

Working so hard every night and day
And now we get the pay back
Trying so hard saving up the paper
Now we get to lay back

Champagne kisses hold me in your lap of luxury
I only want to fly first class desires, you’re my limousine
So elegant the way we ride, our passion it just multiplies
There’s platinum lightning in the sky
Look I’m livin’ like a queen

This kind of love is getting expensive
We know how to live baby
We’re luxurious like Egyptian cotton
We’re so rich in love we’re rollin’ in cashmere
Got it in fifth gear baby
Diamond in the rough is lookin so sparkly

Working so hard every night and day
And now we get the pay back
Trying so hard saving up the paper
Now we get to lay back

Sugar, honey, sexy baby
When we touch it turns to gold
Sensitive and delicate kinda like a tuberose
You know you are my treasure chest
It’s pure perfection when we kiss and
You’re my Mr.. I’m your Miss
Gonna be until we’re old

This kind of love is getting expensive
We know how to live baby
We’re luxurious like Egyptian cotton

Working so hard every night and day
And now we get the pay back
Trying so hard saving up the paper
Now we get to lay back

Cha-ching cha-ching we’re loaded and we’re not gonna blow it
cha-ching cha-ching we’re hooked up with the love cause we grow it
cha-ching cha-ching we got hydroponic love and we’re smokin’
cha-ching cha-ching we burn it you and I, we are so lit

We’re so rich in love were rollin’ in cashmere
Got it in fifth gear baby
Diamond in the rough is lookin’ so sparkly

Working so hard every night and day
And now we get the pay back
Trying so hard saving up the paper
Now we get to lay back

- Gwen Stefani